There is an end for those who want

And I hope I could reach that

And the bonfire lit up

Warming the nights and days to come, until it recedes again to sorrow and despair. Hope would come as it would go, losing many on its track to fulfillment.

An I would wish that I would become what I expected to be, what the society, and everyone around me wished for.

For I am wanted to be a part of the cure, not the disease.

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: The Strokes - Last Nite

Exhausting

I'm tired OK, too tired, and I've come to realization that age is not just a number, If people said they could enjoy life in their oldies I doubt that and I doubt it as well when people said that the older they get the wiser they are. Looking back to my life then and now, all I wanted is just to life with people who understand, in a world where our hearts could speak louder than our tongues, in a world where hypocrisy could not be covered by clothing alone, in a world where shallowness is just there as a reading materials and entertainments and none of characteristics possessed by human.

I wish there is someplace like that, so that I wouldn't wish for my eternal rest once in every time now.

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: Klaxons - Magick

US 'wants Palestinian state now' but will this be it?

Just recently read the article on BBC website regarding that US wants Palestinian state to be formed now. Some might be skeptical, but this might all the world need to stop one of the longest conflict on earth. What can we do now, is just observing how the matters would turn out, and I personally optimistic that in near future we can see the state of Palestine and Israel together in a map. Cheers

---------------- Now playing: Peter Bjorn And John - Young Folks

Sign of the times?

As we grow older, so does the world around us, and along with it, the walls and boundaries which keeping us apart. Ideas and knowledge are growing exponentially, increasing the number of people who survives on their own, leaving behind many bastions of conservatives which unable to move along with the stream.

The people are the same faces we seen everyday in our life, but somehow, now they're alien to the people around them, leaving everybody questioning about the changes that they've seen but not expected.

Conservative dogma are somehow jewels of the past, which glorious brightness are fading away, not because they have lost theirs but because we set our eyes to another thing that is more important, ourselves.

And how does people deal with their own species? derived from the idea of the glorious past and newfound future, they mixed it, making ways to construct relationships and manage them, but somehow it is not able to replace what have been lost.

Cherishes and laughs are somehow present, but they would go as soon as they have come, because the minds are taking it away. They say it couldn't breed passion, because it's driven from fear and hate. Funny isn't it? we love to hate but we hate to love.

So I asked myself, "is this the sign of the times?" or simply another face of the modern life?

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: The Rakes - The World Was a Mess But His Hair Was Perfect

This has got to stop.

My minds are exploding My body's crying

Message from the PVC of Monash University Malaysia

I don't usually comment about fellow bloggers or any other people that voiced their opinion on the internet but still, when I got this email from the PVC of Monash University Malaysia I know something out of the line had been done.

Here is the email:

*********************************************************************** A message from Pro Vice-Chancellor and President (Malaysia), Prof. Merilyn Liddell *********************************************************************** Dear Students,

It has come to my attention that there have been a number of blogs by students that are defamatory in nature, causing hurt to the persons named, and put the students who author the blogs at risk in a number of ways. I suspect that this has arisen because students are not aware of the laws of Malaysia relevant to such situations, nor of the University policies that pertain.

Please note that while free speech is welcome, there are limitations provided by the law particularly regarding defamation and sedition. It would appear that some students are not aware of this, and have perhaps inadvertently contravened the law.

In light of this, the University wishes to provide relevant information to students regarding the legal and institutional context that applies.

Please find attached a document prepared by the campus solicitor, for your information, and action as necessary.

Prof. Merilyn Liddell Pro Vice-Chancellor and President (Malaysia)

NOTICE TO STUDENTS

RE: BLOGGING

It has recently come to the attention of the University that there have been several blogs written by students on the internet which were derogatory in nature and made against the University and its lecturers ("the Blogs").

As such, we wish to bring to awareness that there are laws in Malaysia and disciplinary policies at Monash University relating to such matters. The words used in the Blogs could be construed as defamatory or seditious words and constitute offences under the said laws and policies, thereby placing the blogger ("the Offender") in danger of attracting legal action and/or disciplinary action against him/her.

Definitions Words are "defamatory" in nature if the words "tend to lower a person in the estimation of right-thinking members of society generally" (per the Defamation Act 1957) or if the words "makes or publishes any imputation concerning any person, intending to harm, or knowing or having reason to believe that such imputation will harm the reputation of such person" (per the Penal Code (Revised 1997)).

Words are considered "seditious" if they have a tendency to bring into hatred or contempt, excite, raise discontent or disaffection, promote feelings of ill-will and hostility against another person or party (per the Sedition Act 1948).

Consequences/Dangers for using defamatory or seditious words in blogs There are numerous legal and/or disciplinary actions which may be taken against the Offender:- (i) a civil action for defamation may be initiated in court by the University and/or the offended lecturer against the Offender; (ii) a criminal action for sedition may be commenced in court by the Authorities against the Offender; (iii) the University may take disciplinary action against the Offender for committing a misconduct under the Students Disciplinary Policy; (iv) the University may take disciplinary action against the Offender for committing an offence under the Acceptable Use of Information Technology Facilities By Students Policy.

Advice to Students In view of the above and in view of the very public nature of the blogs, the University advises all students as follows:- (i) to exercise caution when blogging or making any other postings on the internet so as to avoid writing anything which may be defamatory or seditious in their blogs or postings; (ii) to immediately remove any blogs (together with its entire blog trail) or postings which could be defamatory or seditious in nature; (iii) to lodge any grievances or complaints through the proper channels made available at the University, such as through:- (a) the University's Counselling Services; (b) MUSA Education Affairs Committee; (c) the University's Student Services Department; (d) the Course Managers of the respective Schools.

The University also encourages students to at all times maintain and uphold (and not tarnish nor prejudice) the good name and reputation of Monash University as being a premier international university as a good name and reputation serves to benefit not just the University but also the students.

Please be so advised.

Thank you.

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To be frank, I have observed one particular blog which has let's say commented things in this university.

These comments, are somehow facts about the live and people in the campus but delivered in a way that is inconsiderate to the people that are becoming the subjects of the comments.

Therefore for this, I have to applaud the University for recognizing this matter quick enough and in the end I just want to added (liberal) democracy has really great to humanity, but somehow uncontrolled, it would lead to anarchy and that is the last thing we wanted after all the troubles in the world isn't it?

Cheers

Now playing: Morrissey - How Can Anybody Possibly Know How I Feel?

The 8 habits

Got this from Gerry, a homework regarding our habitual life, and without further ado these are the rules to write: Rules : 1. Each blogger must post these rules 2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves 3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog.

So here goes:

1. I'm addicted to caffeine, whether it's a coffee, tea, or the molecular structure of the compound itself.
2. I observed my surroundings a lot, that way I gain more knowledge regarding places, people and life itself.
3. I care a lot about people in my life, the thing is I couldn't show it to them.
4. I'm somehow conservative towards myself.
5. Sometime for a sake of a good argument, I would become a hardheaded person.
6. My tongue loves cynical and sarcastic comments, but other people hated them.
7. I would try my best to blend with people.
8. I don't normally do this because I hate to become predictable.

And the next in list are: Kemi and Yoyo, and I'm still figuring out the rest, sorry for not playing by the rules.

Cheers

There is darkness that is never been touched

Tonight he said "Take me out, anywhere I don't care."

"Because they themselves never care."

"Because I want to see love, I wanted to see light."

"And if I die tonight, I don't care."

"As long as it is with you, then the pleasure is mine."

Tomorrow he fell silent

Like the sun melts the cold.

Like people taken their morning toll.

Like him, who is buried deep

Only him.

For one celebrates death only by himself.

---------------- Inspired by The Smiths-There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

tell me, am I really that bad?

This day I heard that my roommate had something wrong with him, but I didn't get this news out from him, I got it from another friend of mine. The first I thing I do then, is to go back to my room and ask him what is wrong with him, however, he didn't answer me, he just said that it's nothing to be worried about. Tomorrow he'll go back to his hometown for a week, asked by his mum he said, after he had said that, I looked back the way life had revolving around us, as I was never there in case he needed something from me, as he probably always living in loneliness and I, the one who should know better than others is nowhere in sights. This came in like a storm in my life, making me realized that I am such an ignorant in this life.

So tell me, have I abandoned him? have I become such ignorant that I myself did not care for others? for I had spent the time only for myself, my selfish self.

Cheers ---------------- Now playing: The Observatory - Failed Recollections Of A Fool

Tales of silent scream

My life had left me in a sad realization, Where everything was false and nothing was ever right

But nothing could be done

Because nothing was worth it

Because it's just making me suffer more

Because it would left me confined in a room that had no doors nor windows

In the end I couldn't take it, I scream loudly in silence

Begging people to save me, if they could hear and see

the folly of youths

betrayals gossips

loves

cheats

emotions

arrogances

unappreciative

premature actions

but when we looked back, we are not just seeing how silly it was but also how lively life was.

Recipe at the end of the month

Bless the guy who invented instant noodle for he/she had already helped million of people, students especially during the hardest time of their life, at the end of the month, where the allowances had run dry and part time jobs were nowhere nearby. A little money in the wallet, however, could make an dramatic escape from the noodles appendages, and with the help from your housemate appliances and seasonings, I could get a nice and decent meal for last night;

I know it does not look nice but what the heck, my capitalistic stomach needed food and here I was faced with one, so I ate my way to my stir fry tomato beef with potato omelet, and I never looked back again.

The next morning still captivated by my newfound skill to make food, I would then make my own American breakfast, without bacon but with stir fry beef as a replacement, and the results:

However tonight, the instant noodle caught me.

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: Asobi Seksu - New Years

Do scientists make a good businessmen?

Last week I was attending a "seminar" titled "The Importance of Commercialization", however it turns out that the "seminar" was actually an introduction of a new postgrad course offered in Monash University Australia which is the Master of Business (Commercialising Science and Technology). Based on the booklet received at the seminar and the seminar itself, this course give its student more choice in their career, which involve the development of wealth-creating opportunities in the business of science and technology. The key features offered in this course is the specific intent to assist student in commercialising leading edge medical, scientific and technology research projects, in other words the course will teach student the fundamentals of business, economics, legal and management skill required to contribute to this process.

OK, let's face it science student does not essentially make a good businessman nor does business student would make a great scientist, and this is somehow looked like an interesting career path for science student to get out from spending their life in researching or resorting to another career path which totally different from their studies (whom many of them did). So based on the possibilities of these career path this is totally an alternative and promising pathway wasn't it?

In an economic sense yes it is, because it will give the possibilities for one of the student to become an entrepreneur and build their own company, make a discovery thus a lot of money etc. etc. However the choices are still ours right? If I want to make medicine which people in third country can afford rather than chasing profit it's still my choice right? If the world was turning because of the money, I still could standing still without it right? If the temptations were there and the chance were given am I a fool not to join in the rally to chase of commercialization?

I don't mean that scientist does not have the rights to obtain economic wealth, it's just that if all the orientation is based economically then where does the next research fits? is it for creating a cure for a disease or is it for making a profit from a cure of a disease?

The knowledge for this is significant, but it is not the mindset of scientist should have, I believe, because there are still people who can't afford medicine in this world, and our burden is to provide them with what is available, not overcharge them.

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: Damien Rice - Delicate

I am playing tricks on my minds

How is life without recognitions, however full of rejections. How is life filled with alienation, done by people whom are familiar.

How is life filled with false judgment, where you would always be the one that play the culprit and you could never win the case.

How is life filled with agonies and worries, while the world leaving you spinning and twisting following to the tunes of rotation and revolution.

However bad it is, sometimes, it's just the plain old tricks that the minds played, and somehow we just accept that, because falling down is simpler than climbing up. Then after realizing these I wanted changes, I wanted that my minds not to think any of this of part of the blades that would able to slice and chop me. This is done by looking at all matters in the perspective of half full not half empty, and the exposure of constant reminder about what I need to do and when that could be achieved I believe the painful loneliness would become the perfect solitude.

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: Editors - Bullets

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---------------- Now playing: Architecture In Helsinki - Maybe You Can Owe Me

62 years.

62 years, for people, that probably the most conforming time for their life. 62 years, for people, that may be the time for them to not to deal with anything trivial anymore.

62 years, for people, that time is probably is when they already considering their obituary and thinking about their memories that have faded.

For a country, however, it could be the time that, it just about to learn walking or even started to chow down its first food.

It could also be the time where it has matured to become something so complex and yet still simple enough to be understood and followed.

Whatever it is, it's still the place where my heart resides, place where I born, live and preferably died in the arms of the nature shaping it and I still believe even though storms are coming, hopes are lost, and faith is almost extinct, it would still the place where I could find my peace.

In the end I could only say, may you mature to become something that people would look up in awe rather than becoming anecdotes in the corner column of the world issues.

Cheers ---------------- Now playing: Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart

Mistakes

Can we ourselves see our own? Can others forget ours and move on? or is it just stay lingering in the air like the carcass have not been disposed? Can people actually learn from them? Can they realize that they have been repeated over and over? Wasn't the hole was fixed every time somebody fall into it?

I'm sorry for everything that I've done and what I will do, but is it enough?

Cheers

---------------- Now playing: The Strokes - You Only Live Once

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taste of broken glass imperfect tales.

swirling around us

like watching water dries

How's life there in Malaysia?

If people from Indonesia asked me where am I studying, I would answer "well I studied Medical Bioscience in Monash University in Malaysia" and their reply could be categorized into two types; first, for them who know Monash University they would reply "oh ok how many years left?" or "what's the plan after study?" for the people who doesn't know anything about Monash or education in Malaysia they probably going to say; "the heck you doing in Malaysia to become a maid?" as Indonesia is one of the biggest importer of the maid to Malaysia apparently. Well apparently living here is not just about the study, the maid things, and the life after study which I always try to enjoy. However my view upon this country is changing significantly, this is mainly because on my final semester of the second year I was taking an Arts subject as my elective, the lecturer would teach us world history basically, but how she related it to the Malaysia's modern issue made me curious of looking into more than just the normal, plain stories in the newspaper. At past probably I was interested regarding the beta agonist, highway incident, the sports section, any artist or band coming to Malaysia, sales announcements, or purely gossip just because I'm curious.

Suddenly a murder case of one women, one Mongolian women, Altantuya Shariibu, caught me in a political tales in Malaysia (due to the relationship of the murdered with top political people in Malaysia) However, I would still consider this section as unworthy of me to make comment or remark so what can I do is just observing and looking at other news. The more that I spend my time in front of the screen looking through news from blogs particularly had given me another viewpoint of Malaysia, a nation which is going to celebrate its 50 years of independence soon.

In the end I just wish all the best to this country, may all its plights are solved not buried. May all the people's rights fulfilled, and my all what is need to be done is done.

Cheers